sup

Mon, 29 Jan 2007 05:24:36 GMT

well i did it! the audition went amazing. that school is just amazing. i would give a ton to go there. the dance went really well and then my monologue was amazing. my interview was good. one song was good and the other was ehh. we'll see. i seriously doubt ill get in because its SO HARD. but we've agreed that if i don't ill go to santa monica college and transfer in. it's definately the place for me and that's real.

ari is reallllly grinding my gears. he was in CANADA last night. leaves a message at 3 am and then i call at like 11...nothing. then he calls at 1 and we talk a little. then i call after the audition and hes like IM HIKING...where the hell does he get these things? i dont know. then i call later and hes studying chemistry with someone. please believe next time he says call me back tonight, he's gonna see a real ugly side of this little lady.

tomorrow we're going to SMC and shopping some. OMG THAT REMINDS ME i got some adorable BCBG shoes for 11 dollars instead of 80 because the store closes tomorrow. best deal ever. love it. well whatever i'm going to do homework some and watch tv. please believe that boy better be calling me soon.

life

Sun, 28 Jan 2007 07:13:22 GMT

well it's been awhile again. im just not good about keeping up. i should though because writing here everyday always make me feel alot better or like...gives the day closure. anyways...since last time, ari and i are dating now and have been for a bit. he's real great and things are wonderful. he's coming down next weekend. i'm in california because i'm auditioning tomorrow at UCLA. egh. i got in santa monica college and i think im just going to go there. its technically a community college but it really isn't. only because you end up with your AA. its huge and like really prestigious and its right in the middle of LA. a ton of people transfer from there into UCLA and USC. and also...it gives me 2 years to really get cemented into what i want to do and if it changes, then i'm not in a really hard school and wasted money on it. i dunno. i think i'll probably do that but who knows. i'm really nervous for tomorrow too. i just want to come home.

ari is being real annoying tonight too. like i talked to him online some earlier then he never picked up when i called before we went to the art shows and dinner. then he called during dinner and i told him i couldn't pick up. then i called back 2 times and nothing. he knows what i have tomorrow and like...i know he's at this dance party at his friends. and please believe if he drinks tonight i'll be livid. he's made this big deal about not drinking for a month and i doubt he'll keep it going. whatever...flakiness is just the most annoying thing to me i can't take it.

i just want to come home and be with my friends :-(

its been awhile

Sun, 14 Jan 2007 04:56:35 GMT

jeepers, it sure has. a ton has changed since the last time i wrote anything. ari and i are pretty much dating. everything but official. i'm going up to western tomorrow to see him, i cant wait. my parents think i'm going to seattle all day with meg him and brooks and then im staygin at megs house...wrong. haha. fuck if i get caught i'll kill myself. whatever.

i went shopping today with chris and jordan. i got 171.90 of make up at MAC on my parents credit card...woops. whatever ive slit my wrists enough about it. seriously when i saw the receipt, i almost cried. whatever.

then i came home and i'm doing like chores and shit and i just took 2 tylonal PM so i can go to bed at like 930 to get up at 5 to leave for western by 6.

i just cant wait. since ari went back to school, i've started to like him more. he's made it clear that we're exclusive and that we're "dating" but we're still "its complicated", though it's not at all.

i forgot how much i love chris. i know, i say that everytime.

yesterday

Sat, 30 Dec 2006 19:30:57 GMT

yesterday kevin, ariel and i went snowboarding. we took a lesson and actually....by the end of the day, we were really good. but HOLY SHIT i'm so sore. there was THE HOTTEST snowboard instructor there. Drew. he was so cute good lord. he reminded me of john wescott a little. anyways...so then we came home. i showered and talked to ariiii. adore him. then we went to dinner for moms birthday. but we got to the resteraunt at 6 35 and our reservation was at 6 30 and they had given away our table. so my dad, chuck, kevin, ariel and i went to get pizzas. that was taking forever so the 3 of us went and got chocolate milk, shells&cheese and candy. then we came here and ate and ate. then at 10 30 we all collapsed and slept. kbabe called at like 11 30 which was cute. i adore him. i gettttt to see him tomorrow YAY! it was a good day.

i forgot how much i love kevin. everyone should have a friend like him. that you just don't stop laughing with. the three of us have so much fun.

today were going shopping in bend and then tonight the three of us are eating that shells and cheese and just cheeeeelen. i come home tomorrow thank the lord.

I CANT MOVE IM SO SORE.

sunriver

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 08:05:43 GMT

so i stayed at aris and....he's amazing. i won't bore you i guess but...he is. then i came home and packed and we drove alllll day. got here. my dad and i met chris & chuck and ariel and kevin for dinner. i loooove kevin he's like my brother. i forgot how much i love him. and ariel is tight as shit. then we came home and i realized i forgot all my skiing shit but played it off. i think sam duchin still have my helmet...thats awkward because we never talk and ryan...yeah no. my dad and i had a round about college...same old thing. ill be so happy when i get in somewhere. i'm so tired of battling them about how committed i am, its stupid. whatever. things will work out.

so kevin ariel and i are snowboarding tomorrow at 9 am and then...i dunno. its my moms birthday so, something. then saturday we're sledding maybe? i dunno. then i think i'm going to get to come back home for new years thank HEAVEN. i mean...i really hope i can. i don't want to be here. i want to be with ari or meg or maybe even over at kevins. who knows. but i want to be home.

i need to start getting ready for JA goddammittttt. it's coming quick.

i need to memorize my monologue
i need to learn a dance
i need to work out
i need to work on my songs
i need to go home on the 31st

today....

Thu, 28 Dec 2006 08:20:37 GMT

well lets see i left home way too late. i was supposed to be at ari's at 11. oops left at 1 30. then i got meg and brooks, went to ari's. sufficiently awkward. we dropped brooks off and met ari and gordon's in gh. awkward. we went and got food. that amended the situation. then jake (my best friend) came over. that made my day. then we went and saw matt belknap real fast...love him. then i took meg to brooks. went and saw quinn and emily. went to aris. then got meg and we drove around and now we're at megs and i'm staying here because "thers a ton of ice in olympia"...wahtever. i talked about my mom and that horrible situation with kim forever. that was actually really nice. and i'm waiting for ari to call so i'll go stay there tonight. and also we might smoke out.

i leave tomorrow. shit balls.

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 20:46:42 GMT

its one of those amazing days wehre no matter what you do, you hate how you look. GREAT.

ugh

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 19:00:47 GMT

i hate it when everyone decides they can take showers before me. i was like walking in and my dad goes "im going to shower before you...itll take 10 minutes". wrong. when my dad showers he takes like 30 or 45 minutes. i was supposed to be at meg's at 11. oh look, that was a minute ago. how charming.

looong day

Wed, 27 Dec 2006 09:11:25 GMT

well after that pissed off post i went to chris' and hung out with the gang + kiely. i saw cliff for the first time in a long time. that was nice. we all watched dick in a box then chris kiely ari jordan and i went to panda & coldstone. love them. then ari and i hung out awhile and then we went to outback and then i went with my parents to get my grandpa. i got some new good books. "Running With Scissors" and "Everyone You Need To Know".

my parents are bitching about my addictive computer use. they're right. meg & ari & jew firends all day tomorrow YAY!

pissed

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 21:07:19 GMT

my parents won't let me buy a new phone so i'm stuck with my piece of shit and ari isn't here and it's 1:00 and we're leaving at 7:00.

if you can't tell...i'm a little irritated.

to all a goodnight

Tue, 26 Dec 2006 07:53:10 GMT

well. i just cleaned all day then made a gingerbread house and ate. i was supposed to go see ari and hang out with him but things just fell apart. i dont wanna talk about it, thats how stupid it was.

tomorrow morning i'm going to get a new phone early with mom and then ari is ocming down. then we go get grandad while ben ari and shosh ski...jealous. i don't want to go so bad. kevin might come back for new years...hopefully i'm allowed to come back too. i want to be around on new years..really bad.

this christmas was...interesting. in the end, the same things hold true: my parents and i fight but love each other, my friends are all i need & ari is adorable.

strange that this is my last christmas really at home.

christmas so far

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 21:31:16 GMT

hahahahaha i just picked up a drunk message from ari. he's precious. that just made my morning wonderful.

well i woke up at like 11 and ate cinnamon pancakes. i talked to johnny...thats good. he's my favorite cousin i love him. then we opened presents. my parents like theirs. i got scarves and slippers and this tiffany box thats amazing. then i got like $550 bucks. oh and a movie. i'm going to buy a phone. i think i'm gonna get the chocolate because my parents don't want to pay the extra munz for the enV email stuff. it makes it cost as much as like a Motorola Q or my moms palm pilot. thats ok. i'll just get the white chocolate and love my life.

i need to clean my whole room and all this other junk before i can see ari though.

LEAVE ME A COMMENT ABOUT WHAT YOU GOT!!

so late

Mon, 25 Dec 2006 10:37:36 GMT

well the christmas eve thing went waaaay too long and was relaly weird. instead of clapping, the give you wiggles in the air. fucking WEIRD. then i came home and we watched All The Kings Men and ate. that was nice. pogo and cindy got in a fight...she's so damn bossy. then we all went to bed. not molly though, she stayed up until 2 am redoing her myspace. oh well, it's tight now.

i'm hanging out with ari tomorrow. i really wish i could spend the night with him but mom said no no no! no sleeping over and he can't stay here. so hmm. she's also being like self-righteous and being like "if he wants to see you he can come here". yeah i'd rather he did but its mean to make him drive all the time. we'll figure it out.

i really dont want to leave right now. i just want to chill. we'll be gone the 28th through the 2nd. too long.

i'm worried about ari & i because like...i'm not going to be able to visit western much right away. auditions and shit. so like...he might think that means it doesnt work. i think i'll talk to him tomorrow and be like "yeah at first i can't come alot". he has a car, we should like switch off. one weekend me and one him. ya feelz me? and likeeeee i'm going to have to lie A LOT about where i am because my parents will not dig me just sleeping at western. i wish i had megs mom...or like MY mom with meg's moms beliefs about parenting...and cussin g....and burping...and cell phones.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVE!!

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 20:22:08 GMT

so i just woke up and my throat and ears are KILLING me. and i have to sing tonight. and it's not at 5 45 like jeff told me...the service doesn't even start until fucking 7 PM. its so stupid. how am i supposed to give up my christmas eve for him?? i'm so mad. i'm not sure what i'm going to do today. i can't sing obviously. i can't drive. i'm not going to invite ari over if i'm sick. and also his friend gordon comes home today. so he should hang out with him. i'm making pasta now. i want to hang out with brynn later but i need to ask if i'll be allowed to drive. hopefully. maybe i'll hang out with cliff. we'll see.

which dress for JA?
[ this one ]
or
[ this one ]

4th post...cool

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 07:01:54 GMT

not my 4th post of the day or anything. i have a life. well we just had our huge talk. basically i need to shape up. for the next couple months i'm going to need to focus hella hard on getting ready for these auditions. i dont agree that my preparation is why i didn't get in michigan or emerson...i think it was though thousands and thousands of other people that were auditioning for the 20 spots at each. i dunno it's dumb. but i'm going to show that i belong in this business. i'm not going to central washington universtiy, thanks so much. not for molly. washington isn't right now at least. i can do it. it's just going to suck for awhile i guess.

i feel bad for chris. we've all been where he is and i just hope he's ok :-\ i love that guy more than anything no matter what and im worried about him. i just hope he's not mad at me too.

i think i'm getting sick. oh shwell.

so tomorrow we have to sing at Jeff's church's christmas eve service. its fucking stupid. there's going to be like 4 of us. hahaha i just remembered brynn's oly shirt story....OK SO brynn bought this adorable oly shirt last time she was here and the next day i went and bought a few to give people before they were gone. then she was like "yeah i left mine in your car" so i had it forever...gave mine to peopleeee...naomi, jordan, kristi....you know...but i lost brynns hahaha so naomi, jordan and kristi havve one...but brynn doesnt. but it's ok because i bought her a new one to make up for it. i'm a retard.

confused about that guy thing. i'm really hesitant to even hang out with him because of ari. aaah i don't know.

merry christmas?

ari.

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 01:27:37 GMT

( oh cute. )

compricated

Sun, 24 Dec 2006 00:24:51 GMT

well ari just left. its 4 15. he's just great. like we just GET along. when we got up he sat and talked to my mom for like an hour about labor unions and being a lawyer and her past and whatever. i think he's making up for last night. then we chilled for awhile and went to get starbucks. then we drove to the very end of cooper point. its a really nice house haha. then we came back and were fat and just sat and watched rob and big. then he left. before it left though he was really cute and liked picked me up and spun me and then we fought. and he thinks i look cute when i dont shower and just put on my syracuse hat. phew.

we're still "its complicated" but like...its pretty much dating. and we decided that we would just make everything complicated. so sorry, whoever you are reading this, but...you and i are complicated. i dunno i'm just really happy =]

oh dear but the family discussion is tonight :-\ thats shitty. hopefully it goes ok. i just want to be like getting along and happy. the other night when we watched that movie it was actually a lot of fun. we get along sometimes i guess. all i want to do right now is decorate for christmas and watch all the kings men with my maaaam and dad. who EVER thought that molly gale would say that. i didn't. we'll figure it out. i guess the holidays put some spell on me. or maybe its ari benjamen kirschenbaum.

oh, for chris and malia, i know he's great because his harcore-rap-self loves feist and lets me play it all the time.

well...i hope i survive this evening.

sour note

Sat, 23 Dec 2006 11:57:08 GMT

well today was pretty fun. i got up and shower and curled my hair. trent and kasey came and got me. we went to school, broke in to get kaseys paper and turn my shit in and then met tommy emily and alexxx NOT at bertollinos but at the elk's club parking lot. losers. then i went to ari's. we went to the post office and saw this small lady. seriously 3 feet tall. then we did this jew thing with steve, ben olp, ben mandel, jake (my best friend) and will. it was...sufficiently awkward. i was the only girl AND the only nonjew. hmm. then we came back here. had a lovely dinner with my parents and went out to see Casino Royale. we stopped by and saw chris and then malia & heather. the movie was amazing. then we danced in the rain...ha yeah. ari was in only his boxers because he's fucking psycho. then we came home and we just hung out and TALKED...seriously. and my mom flipped shit. we got home at 2 and we were still up at 2 45 OMG WTF HOW DARE WE. but shes super pissed and is liek " i know i can never ever trust you and ari should be more respectful" ugh its so annoying. its like, its just always something to piss her off. so irritating. she'll get over it. our big huge talk about the rest of my life is tomorrow.

on another note, ari and i DID talk. we talked about what we want us to be and what not. we both like each other alot and stuff but he's worried about the long distance. but he said he wouldn't mind trying. he said he needs to clear things up with some other people...like...clear them out. his words were "but they are nothing and not a problem". but we are going to get together officially at some point. we agreed to be "its complicated" on facebook. that doesn't change how amazing and wonderful he is right now. he really is. i dont worry about long distance with us because our relationship evolved while he was gone. like when he left we were acquaintances and when he came back...welll, here we are.

my parents liked him too...and they'll probably get over this whole scandolous "we didnt go to sleep when we were supposed" deal. ha its just stupid.

the day after

Fri, 22 Dec 2006 19:16:04 GMT

my parents are so strange. yesterday they were furious. so i stayed home and watched tv and movies with them and had serious conversations about my collegiate plans and what not and now they're just fine. like, i'm getting ready to leave with kasey & trent all day then come back here with ari tonight. which, i'm excited for by the way. but they're like...not mad. i love it. and i'm excited to see kasey & trent...and ari.

meanwhile, my leg HURTS. i can't wear jeans so...interesting fashion experiments over here.

feist puts me in such an amazing mood. i love it.

on studio 60 last night, it was the christmas show, there was this brass version of O Holy Night by people from new orleans and omg i can't stop thinking about it. it was so chilling.

mmk

Thu, 21 Dec 2006 20:15:56 GMT

so this has been the best week ever. i've just lived with my friends coming and going here and there and it's been amazing. ari is handsome and amazing and hilarious. everything. it's also been quite a blurry break so far...whatever haha.

welllll until last night. we were all at chris and malia's enjoying ourselves in our usual hazy way & we go to bed. my alarm goes off at 6 34 so i get everything ready and sit down to nap until 7 10 when i need to leave for my 7 30 surgery. but then i go to sleep and my phone dies so i wake up at 7 45 and i'm like SHITTTTT!! i sail through the door and get there and my parents take my keys, license and know that i've lied all week about where i am. [btw im not allowed to hang out with chris, for those of you out of our loop]. so they're all crying and pissed and they're like well we're selling this car and you're not doing musical theater we won't pay for the auditions and all this shit. its so stupid. i am one of the better kids out there...they could have it so worse. i only lie because they're so ridiculous with what the allow me to do.

how can a parent FORBID them to hangout with their best friend? its cruel. and yeah i drink and smoke sometimes but holy crap, if i didn't know i'd do it in college and die because i don't know my limits. at some point they have to trust me to make my own decisions, you know? in like 6 months i'm going to have to. i'm not stupid and i don't put myself in stupid situations where i'd get hurt.

while i was laying on the doctors table my mom was talking to me about how i'm not going to get in anywhere because i've made awful decisions and i don't even care enough to be ocmmitted. and im just so sick of fighting that i just agreed with her. like, i hate fighting with her so much that i'll just give up musical theater, my whole passion in life, for just a day of peace with her. how cute.

so i guess thats it. no more auditions for me. she was like talking about "well maaaybe you can get in central or western?" shut you damn mouth of course i can you idiot. i hate it when she's like that. shes so passive agressive. she was like welllllll what are you going to do. and i think i know.

i've always wanted to start like...a Kids at play type program but for retarded kids. like terry! like...music therapy? i dunno i make fun of retarded people a lot but like...i really really really want to do something like that.

also, my mom is talking about leaving washington. our granpa needs people in oklahoma with him. and they have a ton of property there and my mom wants to build. also real estate there is amazing. they have breathtaking mansions for like 400,000. thats how much we paid for our house. so yeah, we might more.

finished for now.

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 23:54:13 GMT

wow i'm done auditioning for college..maybe forever but at least until spring. it feels good. it hasnt hit me yet though. emerson's audition was amazing. everything was wonderful! i love it. not AS much as michigan but alot =] i met a bunch of really awesome peope including JIMMY FAY!! haha i love him. what an awesome name. i think i sang very well and the monologue went nicely. the dance went well too! i love the faculty. awesome.

now i'm back at the hotel watching umich vs ohio state. good game...michigan is gonna win hopefully..well duh. its 4th Q with 7 minutes to go 35-31 ohio state. aw fuck osu first down on a personal foul. ok i'm not going to do play by play. brutus the buckeye is ghey.

i come home tomorrow yay. were going to 25th annual putnam county spelling bee tonight! exciting. im ready to be home. im getting drunk monday night no question.

well osu just scored 41-31 with 5 1/2 left. hmm. that stings.

ari is frusterating me but then again when doesnt he =] he's charming. its abotu time something materializes. and everyone knows it but i dont know why he waffles.

its been a long time.

Sat, 18 Nov 2006 07:22:42 GMT

well not really.

tuesday: so school was nice. i did go to voice & kids in koncert. voice was nice. emily punched me soo hard in the boob that like...i couldn't stand up. i let out a huge cry and then like fell slowly. it was horrible; by far the worst ever. then i called ari and adored him even more and went home.

wednesday: darian and i decided to get facebook married...thank god. i just love him. he's the perfect stupid smart guy...love him. also the power went out for awhile and i got this really good cake for free from raisa. that was nice. then i went to rehearsal. and realized that my part is really bad ass. but i also hurt my leg really bad. oh yeah and flew to michigan

thursday: got to umich. sat around on my ass allllll day. then i had the best pizza i've ever had: baked ziti pizza. it was ssssso good. then i shopped. i got a shirt & some michigan stuff. then went home and slept.

today: got up and did the dance audition. i think it went pretty well! there were some rull good dancers but they were bitches. i think the auditoners see that kind of stuff. and i tried to show that i take direction well and that i always try hard...they say thats what they look for so hmm. then i went to the music school on north campus. i practiced a lot but like...my belt wasn't coming through as well as i wanted it. so i decided well, i cant do much and went in and sang. the ballad went well and so did fifty percent until the last note, a sustained C (above middle) and it sounded a little pushed...but umm hello? they understnad the situation. they said that they were excellent choices and that they didn't need to hear anything else. nobody told me i sounded good...so i might not of and i just dont know im freaking out. then acting went REALLY well. i talked to them for awhile so they saw my personality and i did my monologue really well. phew. hopefully that saves me? then JAMIEEEE came and found me and we talked for a long time. i love him =] i wish everyone could be like him. then piano psiofd whatever. then we went to dinner with THE derik nelson and this amazing resteraunt. then we flew to boston and here i am. my leg hurts like a BITCH and i only have one more.

i love michigan so much that it scares me. like, i'm going to be crushed if i don't get in. and thats the thing, there is SO much playing in to whether i get in or not thats out of my control. and i also hate that there is nothing i can do now to affect the outcome. aaah i feel so helpless haha. i love love love it. so emerson tomorrow. when i visited here i love love loved it too...its just the OPPOSITE of what i've always said i've wanted...a huge school with football and keggers and law schools and everything. emerson doesn't have a football team, frats/sororities...it's just NOT a university....and it actually isnt, it's emerson college. i dunnnooo...

enough boring stuff...i miss ari :-\ and charlie and everyone. i get to see soooo mannnnyyyy people this week because everyone is coming home for thanksgiving, i can't wait.

big undies.

Tue, 14 Nov 2006 07:10:13 GMT

its what i sleep in. they make me feel happy ok. i sleep in a big button up shirt and big grannies. shut up because i know you girls dont sleep in the ridiculous victorias secret corsets anyways.

well, back to school! that was fine. i missed my friends. we started a secret operation today entitled OSF. i would tell you what it is, but i'd have to kill you. its going down right after new years. its going to be epic, don't worry.

blah i did no homework tonight. i had rehearsal, which was artsy and fun. then the mall with meg, chris and jordan. LOVE it. we're gonna apply several places. i need income, thats why.

ari kirschenbaum & sam grady confuse the SHIT out of me. ari seems like he feels the same way abobut me and knows that it's right but is just overthinking everything that could possibly go wrong and isnt just letting things happen. sam seems moody about his feelings for me. he acts like their one thing and then says another. don't get it. maybe its just that i'm scared about what they both feel and i'm justifying things to myself. bottom line, i'm sick of being alone and i want someone to share my time with. especially my christmas time.

tomorrow is school, rehearsal maybe but i really REALLY need just to have voice and kik. hopefully mr forier will understand. i need to change this song. i'll probably end up doing moonshine lullaby. i really REALLY need to get in michigan. it means the world to me.

i hate this stress from college. i can't wait till its done with. i seriously, have never been under so much stress or pressure.

home =]

Mon, 13 Nov 2006 09:04:48 GMT

finally i'm home.

wow i've done a ton of shit today. i woke up, had horrible cramps all morning. went to my audition. everyone was really nice but it just didn't go very well and i think that's because i didn't really like it/want to go there. whatever. i think i have to find a new song instead of the nearness of you. i sorta thought that. its like jazzy ballad and show's off just about nothing. way to go troy. i'm going to tell him they said get all new songs because these 2 are not that great. naomi said that he gave her 2 non rangy non show offy ones and she barely got in anywhere so maybe is should change. she's amazing too. ugh i dunno.

OMG i met these 2 people today that i LOOVVEE.
1. EMILY she's from dallas and were auditioning together on friday at michigan i'm so excited she was amazing and i adore her!! wouldn't that be weird if we ended up together at school! hmmm
2. TYLERRRRR love of my liffffe. also from dallas! we went out to lunch after the audition and i just adore him. we're going to audition at OCU together (hopefully and not hopefully at the same time...yeah nevermind) i'm gonna see him when i go to ardmore at christmas. hes super amazing and totally the love of my life.

school tomorrow. cool? i miss everyone but like i'm gonna be sooooo tired. i have to make up in like 5 hours. omg i canNOT get sick this week. michigan audition is the most important thing to ever happen to me...i love that school with my whole BEING i have to get in.

mrow i'm going to see christopher sometime soon, i need him & i miss him.

pittsburgh.

Sun, 12 Nov 2006 04:06:42 GMT

well the syracuse audition went well. i could have done better but it was all so nerve racking. i met a cool girl from oregon named teal. she's like a god of the theater and dance. beeaattch. last night i just sat around then went to this lounge at this hotel in syracuse with naomi, her amazing gay friend jared and this babe meredith and her amazing texas mother. we just talked and were really loud the whole night until like 1 30 then i went home, got free pudding and went to sleep. i loved syracuse. seriously, i would adore going there. i find out in may.

i'm in pittsburgh now and i don't like it much. i'm so NOT invested in the audition tomorrow. i'm jsut not memorizng my monologue goddddd i suck haha. theres no way i'm getting in here but i just dont want to embarres myself. i can't wait to come home. i've missed my buddies.

i love seeing couples walking around, especially around the holidays. its the best feeling...well except for being in that couple. speaking of, i'm super confsued right now. uuuugh western washington university is killing me right nowwwww.

i'm going to memorize this while i talk to my friend doing ectascy on IM. hmm i love my life =]